it's not the way you ride

contessa and i once discussed all the possible ethical dilemmas that could be extracted from any field of work, c'est â dire we took some seemingly innocent examples amd found an ethical dilemma within each, and made the generalization in order to detach ourselves, allow ourselves a bit of desultory apathy. the moralist finds reliable comfort only in indifference to the truth.

a young girl contracted by a subcontractor came to my door to solitcit a donation for save the children, and i handed her a check for five dollars. she explained that it was not their policy to accept donations of less than ten dollars. she said that there was a processing fee for depositing the check and in order to keep overhead costs low, it was not poosible to accept my donation unless i changed it to ten dollars. i told her i had an ethical dilemma. that i would like for the five dollars to go to save the children, but i wanted to know who was actually contracting her at minimum wage to solicit these donations. in this way i failed to donate any money to children for an ethical dilemma that i couldn't really articulate. or is it that the ethical dilemma is an indulgence to allow myself more indifference?